"Stevie is going to bring so much joy to our family" -Paxton, age 11
As I ask my families to write their stories for me, again and again and again the story of loss and infertility is the norm. It breaks my heart, I cannot imagine that kind of devastation not just once but repeatedly. With great loss though, the joy a rainbow baby brings has got to bring in more gratefulness then have never having lost. Here is this families story, I pray others will find comfort and share their stories as well! (this family was the highest bidder on a donation I had made for a sweet momma and her precious baby girl, their boys were not able to join them on this one so they decided a mini with their princess was in order!)
Paxton (our middle son) has said a few times in the past couple weeks that Stevie is going to bring so much joy to our family. At 11 I don't think he has any idea how true that really is. After five years of trying; I got pregnant.
I found out pretty early on and we were all so excited. Then the day came that we went to the Dr. to find out how far along I was. The ultrasound showed that our baby had stopped growing at 5 weeks. It was devastating. 2 years ago we decided that conceiving ourselves was not going happen so Nate and I decided to see an infertility specialist. On our third try I was finally pregnant. We were so happy and so scared all at once. Then one week turned into weeks and months....our excitement grew. November last year Nate and I went to the Dr. to find out if we were doomed (just kidding!) to have a house full of boys or if a little princess was joining our family.
We called Paxton on our way home and told him the news. He was so happy! He even called Nana to tell her before we had a chance to! Nate was ecstatic that he was going to have a daddy's girl to raise. The day Stevie decided to make her appearance Nate had traveled out of town for work and couldn't make it to the hospital. Paxton was there though making sure I was okay and trying to patiently wait for his sister. She made her appearance in just 4 short hours. Paxton was in love.
Stevie is my rainbow baby that has made our family whole. Seeing all of the boys in my home be so protective of this beautiful baby melts my heart. I am making sure to enjoy everyday and every moment watching her grow. I go back and forth between wanting to keep her tiny forever and wanting to see her grow into a beautiful little girl. Being a mom to a girl for me isn't that different yet than a boy. I went just as crazy shopping for Pax; ask me again when dance class and school dances begin...it might be different then!